A Secret to share

Sorry for my lack of blogging these days, I just haven't had the time, I found a new obsession at the moment thats interpals. I have become crazy about finding new snail mail pals. I know its probably not necessarily a good thing, because I am keeping it from my boyfriend, I don't really know why I don't want to share it with him. Usually I like to share everything with him. 

I guess its just because its just a privacy thing, Perhaps I have gone mad on letters this month because it's a distraction, just a temporary distraction. I can't really explain why I wanted to start pen-palling and snail mail again I think its because I feel I have an escalating amount of secrets that I am holding in that I find very difficult to say aloud. 

For example things to do with my boyfriends immigration troubles my mom is more than pass remarkable about this she always has some comment to make about him. To be honest shes probably right in most of what shes saying but I don't like to hear it.  I just find it easier to talk about when I write it down. 

Another thing that encouraged me in a way to start pen-palling is a surprising source The Vampire Diaries, I know what you're thinking how does this have anything to do with pen-palling, well it's not so much the pen-palling but more the secret keeping, Elena the non vampire fell in love with a vampire and had to keep it from everyone she loves. It made me think I need someone to open up to and talk to freely. 

Someone who can judge from a far. I like being able to share secrets but also retain some privacy. Is it weird? Anyway whether its weird or not its what I've decided to and have started doing. I really like the feeling of checking the mail and seeing if anything has arrived I just find it so exciting. I really love the anticipation, sometimes it makes me feel like christmas. 

I have done pen-palling before and quit but hopefully this time I won't.