Sometimes you just need a good cry

Too be honest I have always been a terribly weepy person, (especially at that time of the month...) When I was in Secondary School I always used to cry in French class,

Especially in second and third year. My teacher Ms. M, hated me or that's what I thought. Basically anytime I hadn't done my homework or I had forgotten my homework copy my teacher used to scream at me and make me feel extremely embarrassed and uncomfortable. Then I would ball my eyes out.

I remember one time I left my homework copybook in my locker and she came down to my locker and took everything out of my locker and tidied my locker for me and took my copybook to correct. Everyone around me thought it was hilarious.

But I will never forget the time when we were discussing transition year in French class and I said categorically "I am not doing it" another 5 other students also stated they were not doing it. But at the end of class she said in front of everyone "Sarah will you stay back, I want to talk to you" I was freaked out, did I forget to hand up some homework???

But no!! She wanted to tell me how stupid I am for deciding to not to Transition year, Stating I am to young, too immature,

It will be the biggest mistake I will ever make, asking Have you talked to your parents? Anyway she made me feel so small.

When I told my Mom she was fuming, How dare she try to meddle into my personal choices. The thing that bothered me was that half some of the other students in my french class who were skipping transition year were younger than me... and she didn't embarrass them or question them..

Perhaps some people reading this will agree with Ms. M and say Transition year was the best year ever and that I made a huge mistake not doing it... but my brother did it and although he loved the first half of the year with the musical, trips and all that Jazz but the second half of the year was totally half arsed and he hated going to school because they literally weren't doing anything everyday, free classes are no use when you don't get any homework in anything...So no I don't regret it at all.

Another thing that makes or has made me cry is Jacqueline Wilson books, I remember being on a flight from Spain to Ireland when I was 10 or 11 years old and sobbing the whole way back, people on the plane must of thought I was so devastated to be coming back to Ireland...

I cried when my ex boyfriend told me that his ex girlfriend had cheated on him. I felt really really sad  I think I crossed the line between sympathetic and over sympathetic....

Anyway my most recent cry came today when I was reading a book called "Room" It's got to be the most saddest book I have read in along time. I was reading it at the apartment last night whilst waiting for my boyfriend to get home and was sobbing away when my boyfriend came in the door... He thought someone had died

My boyfriend cried twice at the cinema, The first time was when we watched Love and other drugs and the second time when we watched Guilivers travels. It was quite funny, he is so cute!!

But the thing I hate most when I'm crying is when someone gets angry and starts giving out to me for crying and complaining that I am embarrassing them. My ex boyfriend used to do this. He used to fight with me a lot and sometimes I ended up crying on the street or on the train or the bus. The last time I cried in public was the day me and my boyfriend went to the second solicitor.

Lazy me!

Guess where I am going to be spending Summer this year?

Portugal or Spain?

Camping in France? would you believe I have never truly been camping before, Apparently it's too low end for my parents. They want guaranteed sun and absolutely no risk of rain. Perhaps some day me and my boyfriend will go proper camping with a camp fire, toasted marshmallows and a tent and sleeping bags and blow up camping beds.

Sailing around Europe?

None of the above, I will be attending summer school, for the first time in my life, well thats not entirely true, when I was in my final year in Secondary school my Parents (Mom) sent me to some intensive 2 week Irish courses and 2 week french courses during the summer. But I was still able to go on holidays somewhere even if it was just to England or Wexford in Ireland.

But this summer school is self inflicted, I was given the option to choose the colossal thesis or to do Summer School, and I opted for the easier of the two.

Well I didn't just opt for the Summer School because I am lazy but also because I wanted to get to see my friends during the summer, and the vast majority of my college friends are doing Summer School,

Secondly I didn't like the idea of being left to my own devices to do a whole 100 page+ project on my own, with no input from anyone. If it had of been a disertation which involves a group of 5 doing a thesis style project I may have considered it.

Thirdly the lecturer who is supposed to be the Thesis is a terribly intimadating lecturer and although she appeared to like me during some classes at other times I really disliked her class, she always used to put me on the spot. Like suddenly throw a question at me without me putting my hand up. Then making me feel embarassed/

Fourthly I think having 4 months to do a project would make me put it on the long finger and keep saying ah I have plenty of time.... then in the end I would be rushing like mad. I like deadlines.

Anyway today the Module registration for Summer school began today and it seems like we have 8 options.

1. Inovation Networks.
2. Cross Cultural Management
3. Technology Management and Inovation
4. Organisation renewal
5. Managing of Banking Institution
6. WEGE (World Enterprises,Globalisation, Europeanisation,)
7. Corporate Governance
8. Managing Learning in an Organisation

So far I am thinking of the pink ones. But I can change anytime before the summer term starts.

{Has anybody reading this done a thesis? and would you recommend it? Am I lazy?]

What an adventure!

Today was a very hectic day, I had to get up at 7.45 rush out the door to catch my bus and then once I arrived I had to start practicing for our presentation. To be honest I am usually a big bag of nerves before the presentation and I dislike practicing, the less times I have to perform in front of people the better.

Today was no different the first attempt at practicing gave me stage fright and I just went completely blank and I had to apologize to the rest of the group and go rooting for my notes. The second time I was talking like a mouse, very quietly. Then we gave up and decided we would be fine.

One thing I am always super worried about when doing presentations is that we will be under time. Which is absolutely totally embarrassing and it happened to me once last semester when I was presenting with a different group and I felt like it was all my fault. I tend to speak a lot faster when I am nervous. I just want to get it finished as possible. So since then I always prepare a little more than necessary as a back up.

Another thing that is a little annoying about college presentations is that some are formal some are informal. Most people like informal because we can wear whatever we want. But I actually prefer formal because I feel if your going to do a professional presentation then you might as well do it dressed professionally.

However I find Irish formal clothes for women is really lacking and lagging behind the likes of Asia. Which is not a surprise. Recently I was skimming through some Japanese fashion Magazines such as Vogue, Seventeen and Kera all April editions and came across some of these pics. The first few are Cute Formal

 

 Here are some gothic takes on Fomal wear, I don't know if i would be brave enough to try them..

 I might try the one below..

 I like the one below its not overly gothic and looks quite sweet

Here are some vogue formal wear

 

The funny thing about the presentation was that it was on a company called Sunflower, which are involved in Tire repairs in Lithuania and Latvia. Ironically me and my boyfriend use Sunflower and Rosemary as code names for each other. When we are messing around. But I never imagined a company with a name like Sunflower to be involved in Tires.It just seems so girly.

ultimately the presentation was a success. Then I came home and It was a beautiful sunny day so me and my boyfriend decided to go out and have an adventure. We went and climbed Bray Head! 

 This is BrayHead in the distance.

 Here's the view from the top

 This is the Dart/Train going around Bray Head.

 We also saw a bungee jumper today

Then when we followed a path which led us to the middle of Greystones's Highway (the next town to Bray) we then had to walk all the way back to Bray. (A good 7 miles) My boyfriend was so stubborn and didn't want to take the bus back because "today we are walking" 

This is the Pathway we followed

So now my legs and feet feel really sore. and my boyfriends eyes feel really sore, he caught conjunctivitis.... Not a happy camper. So I'm playing nurse. Although he is a very stubborn patient.